This is a list of all the fictional crushes that I've had. Most have been in some way related to gender-envy but I have loved them all deeply.
It's hard to put them in order because some are reoccuring or overlap so bare with me.
hover for art credit (if it's not official art).


Dave Strider from Homestuck
mid 2020-mid 2021 & all of 2023
This dude remind me of someone I hold dearly. I find him to be funny in a weird way and his whole character arc of self discovery was beautiful.
I used to be a hardcore davekat fan but lately I haven't liked it as much; it's too forced especially in the epilogues.
Bro Strider from Homestuck
july & august 2023
This one may be the most problematic on here(??) because he is the physically abusive guardian of Dave Strider. I'm not entirely sure why I like him; He dies in the beginning of the comic and his reputation within canon isn't the best.
My favorite version of him is Zillyhookah's (deactivated); I love his design and personality *heart eyes*.
Jeff the Killer from "Jeff the Killer"
june 2023 & 2015
He is not the only creepypasta on here.. I had a huge creepypasta phase back in 2014-2016. At first, I thought he was offputting (for obvious reasons), but some interesting fan art I'd seen changed my mind.
Then in july, my bf brought him up again and I just fell back into that phase for a week or two.
Dirk Strider from Homestuck
may & june 2023
I spent a ton of time researching this guy. His story and lore is so interesting and he's canonically a gay dude??? like me?? he's so cool.
John Egbert from Homestuck
early january - now
Is it selfcest to be in love with your kin? Anyway. He's my highest kin and I love him so much. I ship him with pretty much everyone :B ...
at first I thought he was kind of boring; I'm not sure why my opinion changed but yk, here we are.
Kaworu Nagisa from Evangelion
june 2023 & 2015
I have nothing much to say about him except that his lore is very interesting and I like his and Shinji's relationship.
Edward Cullen from the Twilight Saga
November-December 2022
He is very different in the books; he's a lot less overbearing. I think he's charming and being a teenager, I fell for him.
The way he is depicted in the movies is strange to me. For one, I don't believe that Robert Pattinson was very good for the role; he looks disgruntled in a way, I guess? While in the book he is depicted as more sweet looking.
All-in-all, I like the books more than the movies.
Edward Nygma from Gotham
August-October 2022
This man made me obsessed with CSI work for quite a while.
It's not canon but it's very obvious that he is autistic and I relate to him a lot.
Hajime Hinata from SDR2
2020 - 2021
I am very embarassed to put him on here. I no longer like Danganronpa and the fans are very toxic.
Anyway. He gave me a lot of gender-envy so I ended up crushing on him.
Inuyasha from (you guessed it) Inuyasha
mid 2020
As soon as I watched the show, I loved him. He was my baby. I love him. I binged the show for like 2 weeks and never ended up finsihing it for whatever reason.
Hanako-kun from TBHK
2020
I read the whole manga in a week and was obsessed for a while. Me and an old friend fan-boyed over him together too.
Tomura Shiguraki from MHA
2020
another mha dude. I liked him because I was an edgy preteen T-T. I don't know his lore AT ALL because I stopped reading the manga years ago.
Izuku Midoriya from MHA
late 2019
Maybe this is more embarassing than my Danganronpa crush. but. yeah. uhm. i dont have much to say.
Bakugo from MHA
2018-2029
I was SO freaking obsessed with this bitch. I just thought he was so goddamn hot.
Zim from Invader Zim
2018
He's very goofy okay. Silly little alien dude.
Naruto Uzumaki from Naruto
2018 - 2019
I got into this series because of a guy I knew. I liked his whole backstory with the fox or whatever (furry moment). Other than that and the fact that he's a perv, I don't remeber much about him.
Dib Membrane from Invader Zim
2016 & 2022
He is awesome and silly. He is my baby and will be forever. I wanted to be him at some point in time so uhhh
Ticci-Toby from "Ticci-Toby"
2016
I was introduced to creepypasta at a young age. This man was my favroite (aside from Ben). I remember being scared of my parents finding out about creepypasta for some reason..
Ash Ketchum from Pokemon: Indigo League
2012 or 2013
I began watching Pokemon with my bio dad at a very young age and Ash is the first (fictional) crush I can remember. The I Choose You! movie made me cry; I was so distrought that Ash became "evil" and then died?!?
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